A love so large…
I make a point to tell my boys I love them and I’m grateful for them almost every night.
Last night, my oldest told me he was sorry but he was only grateful for daddy right now. “But don’t worry, mom, I still like you.” Hmm…
It made me think a lot about how we love one another and how we perceive the love others have for us.
Due to our double school drop-offs and pick-ups this year, my husband is mainly in charge of my oldest. He has had that precious car time with him where all that will be revealed about his day is shared. My husband has also been patiently working through my oldest’s limited homework each night.
So, I definitely get the shift. I get why my son’s grateful for his dad. I am too.
But still… you know it smarts just a bit even when I understand why.
It made me think how often God feels the way I did last night after that brief encounter.
I wonder how God feels when I miss the quiet miracles offered to me. I wonder how God feels when I put something or someone higher in my rankings.
How does God feel when I don’t believe in the immensity of the love God offers me? When I don’t even recognize it?
This morning, I’m sitting with this quote from Rainer Maria Rilke and considering that all around me… right this very minute… is a love so large I can’t escape it. Every small step I take forward today, that love will be there… whether I recognize it, whether I’m grateful for it, whether I offer anything in return.
And it is there for you too.
[“Believe in a love that is being stored up for you like an inheritance, and have faith that in this love there is a strength and a blessing so large that you can travel as far as you wish without having to step outside it.” – Rainer Maria Rilke]